Hey Guys.. I wanna talk.. (R.I.P)

It's been a while.. Sorry..  This won't be long.. But I just gotta say this..


I haven't had the best of life lately... I've been pretty depressed.. But my main point is..

I myself have thought about.. Ending it all.. many of times. Have I done it.. Well I am still here.. But.. 

If you ever think about it.. attempt it.. Just.. Get some help.. And think about the people around you, the people you have inspired and helped. it really isn't the answer.. I'm Just...



OK LOOK, I'M SORRY I AM NOT GOING TO TALK SWEET AND SOFT BUT IF YOU GO.. IF YOU LEAVE, SPECIALLY THE COWARDS WAY OUT. YES I'M SAYING THAT CAUSE I KNOW WHAT YOU ARE THINKING AND FEEL LIKE DOING, I HAVE BEEN THERE. I AM NOT MAKING FUN OF YOU.. OR. BEING A DICK AND LAUGHING ABOUT IT.. CAUSE I HAVE BEEN THERE I AM ONE OF THOSE PEOPLE. THERE ARE PEOPLE OUT THERE THAT CARE A SHIT TON ABOUT YOU. I AM NOT LYING. YOU SAY THERE IS NO ONE, BUT EVEN A PERSON YOU MET FOR EVEN LIKE 2 MIN. WILL STILL CARE ABOUT YOU AND REMEMBER YOU!

YOU WILL UPSET PEOPLE AROUND YOU.. MAKE THEM CHANGE WHO THEY ARE.. MAKE THEM CRY OVER YOU.. MAKE THEM MISS YOU! THEY CARE...
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Now the one person.. Who I smile about.. every time I see them.. i won't be seeing that smiling face of theirs... For a long time.. Their a person who was always so sweet.. cared.. and always smiled.. Cause of how hurt they are... 

I'm having trouble dealing with a loss.. and so are the people that were around them. So please... if you ever need help.. Just.. get some help.. from someone.. PLEASE... I beg you all..... 

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R.I.P Johnny 

You left way to early from here.... I'm sorry i couldn't make it to your funeral... But I didn't wear black today as you wanted people not to... You were a great person.. Your family will miss you so much.. Specially your sister. I'll miss hearing your 2 x-box story telling, the way you two bonded was incredible. I know i don't believe in god really, but I do believe in a Heaven and Angels. Hopefully my dads will take care of you and show you around up there. Make sure to watch over you family.. Alright?   Thank you for all those times... Rest In Peace Johnny
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